Eschew Obfuscation, Procrastination, Lazy.........

This was supposed to be posted back on 28JUN09 ; Just shows how lazy I am. --------------------- As I start writing this, I wonder where I am headed with this post or this piece (would like to call it a piece of art, but then no one else will except me). Lots of things have happened these past few weeks I am totally disconnected with reality. Want to race through life at the same time don’t want it to be a blurry haze when I do look back. Had the opportunity to interact with several different types and kinds of people for which I am very happy and they made me realize how lucky I am to have such a good life and upbringing. I am extremely blessed to have a loving family, friends who genuinely care about me and my well being with no expectations. If one would ask who Siva is to you, I wonder what they would say, is he someone you can depend upon or someone who is irresponsible and careless. I do not want to be someone who knows everyone in the world, I just want to be a person who can...

It’s the beginning of a new month though it’s going to be another 30 days of Mundane tasks, I thought why not kick this month off with a new post. By the looks of my previous post my readership has possibly increased by 300%. I wonder whether my marketing and advertising blitz has paid its dividends. If only I had done a better job at the Marketing part guess I could have probably boosted my Blogs readership by another 300% or so. Well there’s always the possibility for this post to surpass the earlier one. The comments for the previous ones ranged from “STFU” to “You could do better” I take all those Comments from a Constructive Criticism perspective. My family members have suggested that I write something that has got some substance in it, so that it could be more useful to me going forward and also to my readers. I wonder how I can do that. Though I consider myself to have a wealth of knowledge on irrelevant things, I am not sure how I can package them to be useful to someone else. ...

Right now am stuck in a rut. Not interested in doing anything that I used to enjoy a couple of weeks back. I don't even like checking my mails nowadays. I don't enjoy watching movies. I don't enjoy listening to music. Only thing I seem to enjoy nowadays is playing with my dog Mac. I haven't watched any movie or atleast new ones like the way I used to, 2 or 3 per day. Also, I havent dedicated some time for my PS2. Bought games however haven't really played them. Wondering why I am in this kind off rut. My friends tell me that this is another phase and it will pass on, once I have something interesting to do. Well to my knowledge I have been waiting for that day for the past 5 years or so, and yet that day has not come. Hopefully I should be able to come out of this after some soul searching I will be doing in the coming weeks.

Today is a Sunday. Weekend time. Nothing much to do. Normally weekends will end up in a movie for me. The only thing I do on a regular basis. Nowadays this has also become not so regular for me. I am wondering the state of mind I am in right now. If you take away my PS2, my DVD player, my TV, my Computer...there is nothing I want to do. Don't fancy reading a novel. Don't fancy taking a walk. I don't want to do anything that will involve me going out when the sun is out. This is what I have realised. I hate going out when the sun's is shining. Probably due to the fact I have been a nocturnal creature this past 4+ years, thanks to my job/s. I am bored easily. I guess this is because nothing holds my fancy due to my short span of concentration. However, at work, I am able to do away with my tasks, without even flinching. Wonder why. Guess, Money motivates me more than anything. However, I am not even earning that much. I would love to do nothing and just enjoy being me. No...

Going through my previous posts and the frequency in which I have posted, one thing dawned on me today. Unlike others my life isn’t interesting or notable. My life is boring as per me and I don’t think people would find it useful. Probably, the younger generations can take a few leaves out off my book on “how life shouldn’t become” or “how life can become if you are a sloth”. Having said that another thing occurred to me now, it’s not that my life isn’t interesting, it’s just that I don’t know what’s interesting. I don’t believe I have the literary tact to write or conjure up a fascinating anecdote of my life. I guess it’s up to the writer’s ability to make up one’s life interesting or not so interesting. No wonder I am not famous. Now that; I take with a pinch of salt. I am a man “with“ few words. Take notice it’s not “a man of few words” it’s “a man with few words”. Just one word is changed and the entire sentence takes a whole new direction. So being as careful I am, certain thin...

It's been a long time. Not that I was busy with any other thing. Couldn't pull myself away and sit on the computer and type something out here. Wasn't too interested to continue blogging. Lost interest thanks to my concentration span. However rite now have compiled a list of movie reviews. Let's jus see how long this goes on this time......

When I first created this blogspot id, I was wondering how long it would hold my fascination. Thought it would die down after a couple of days, however nowadays I do take time to collect my thoughts and try to put it down here. No matter who reads or not, it feels nice to have a journal or a diary kind off thingy to go back too...... That being said, I can't stop thinking of how long this will go on for. Am at work right now, meaning being "vetti" thinking about Life as such, bumming out when I think about the future. My only solace is that things will work out, cuz they always do, though they haven't in the past 5 years, they will at some point of time. I HOPE SO.... Hope is Life....that's one of the phrases that I coined (to my knowledge...if it's copyrighted, guess I am ignorant to it....ignorantia juras neminem excusat..hee hee) man that I learnt in my 11th standard, still I remember it....my teachers were gd, all credit goes to them. I always have this ha...

well to start off, in past couple of months I have inculcated the practice off "F" it, if things aren't smooth. You give it your best shot and if that ain't enough F it. I am not the person who says if the best is not enuff, u go the extra mile...boss! I have done my best, there is no more....wht extra mile...thats all I can do here....u expect more sorry ! I aint cut out for it. F it has been a easy way out for me and it serves to vent my anger and frustration out. I dont mind it. It a healthy practice of keeping a cool head. Nowadays things are getting out of control. F it just aint enuff anymore!!! so guess I need to go the extra mile and think off something better than F it.....any suggestions ??

so frustrated with this life...thinking about how mundane it has become....nothing interesting happening. Just routine so to speak. There are certain things you will realise as you grow old. Certain things that mattered and you loved to do eventually wont matter and you will start hating it. I am talking about human beings as well. I know people may not accept this, however this is true in most cases. I would rather be unfazed and unbridled than be caught up in things like this. I want to be free, however I have ambitions which wont let me be free. Even if I achieve my goals, still I won't be happy. I have realised this, I can't be satiated. I ain't content because I am very materialistic. Things don't happen for me because right now, I am in a comfortable place. A place where I need not take too much of risk nor do too much of work. It's relaxing and nice to be at this place right now. However, after 5 or 6 years down the line, looking back I would regret not tak...

Life Could Be Worse……..does this mean that I am pissed that life is worse or am I happy that it isn’t shittier than it is now. Thinking back on this, I probably came up with this around 3 years back when things weren’t smooth and everything I wanted to do didn’t happen. Did I try then to do the things, yes I did. However things have their own way of working out I believe and they did. Whether it’s for the better or worse, time will tell.